We’ve all tossed a penny into a fountain or blown out
our birthday candles with a wish. If you’re like me, you’ve done that
and you’ve wished on a shooting star, kissed the blarney stone and blown
eyelashes all over the place; every time hoping for a baby.
These days, I’ve stopped wishing for a baby because it seems too hard and too certain to disappoint me. Instead, I wish for happiness and inner peace with my life as it is. Happiness is a big goal, but somehow it seems smaller than a baby and, after so many disappointments, more attainable.
One way that I try to keep myself peaceful and happy is by writing about my life, my experiences and my feelings about infertility; but not just writing, blogging. You see blogging gives me a community of people like me. You may not look like me, act like me or think like me, but you get me. We have one very important common experience – infertility.
This weekend I attended the BlogHer conference in New York. It’s the largest conference for blogging women in the world and a great source of inspiration for me. This year was no exception. During the conference, I attended an event at the Museum of Modern Art and saw Yoko Ono’s Wish Tree in the Sculpture Garden.
I was struck by the tree, not just because its poor branches were weighted almost to capacity with tags, but because of the large number of people who were waiting to add their wishes. As I watched, hundreds of people waited, wrote and tied their deepest desires to the tree for everyone to see.
It was amazing. And it reminded me so much of what infertility bloggers do every day.
Infertility has taken me to some dark places. I was depressed, scared and felt alone, despite the friends and family surrounding me. And while my quest for my first child happened before I began blogging on Lawyer Mama in 2006, the legacy of my depression still lingers.
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