Over the last year, my life has changed dramatically. I quit my full time job at a law firm; started my own photography business; got through a major depressive episode; oh and almost destroyed my marriage. Yeah, there was that too.
We're working on it and I'm working on me. But I need to stop focusing on what I haven't done and haven't accomplished in my 37 years and focus on what I have. I need to stop caring what other people think and figure out what I care about.
I have two beautiful little boys who adore me. I have a family and a husband that loves me. I have friends that challenge me to think, to feel, to help and support others.
I have amazing friends.
If there's one thing I've learned in the last year, it's who my real friends are. My real friends didn't cut and run during the hard times. My real friends stayed and listened and offered their support. Do I think that those who stayed are simply more open minded than others? No. I think that those people who really care about me were able look at things a little more objectively because of their love for me.
Another important thing I've learned over the last year is that I need to write and I need to take photographs. When I don't, I become a bottled up, raging mess.
So in 2010, I'm going to make more of an effort to keep writing here and I've decided that I will take at least one photograph every day in 2010 to post on my photo blog.
I'll try to keep focusing on the details when the big picture - life - is just too much for me. Sometimes the details remind me what's most important.